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sunrises/sunsets

freedom

cupcakes w/pink frosting and sprinkles

a child’s touch

equality

awomans body

a kittens purr

the first bloom

childhood memories(good and bad)

sand beneath your feet

avocados

lunar eclipse

fairness

peace

christmas

thursdays

well, well, well. what a day. i got my exercise in this morning so that is good.i love getting it done at the beginning of the day, then you don’t have to worry about it. i was feeling kind of lazy when it came to the strength training so i pulled out the resistance bands. actually got a pretty good workout. i just googled some exercises and ended up picking this one: http://exercise.about.com/cs/exerciseworkouts/l/blresistanceban.htm

also, on the foodie front i’v done well today. and trying to get more water- that can be so hard. i’m just not thirsty. i really have to make myself drink it!

other things in life are kinda crazy right now, though. my husband is a rap artist (www.myspace.com/phyastarta). and along with that comes a lot of drama! doesn’t help that we live in a small city. the stress level is pretty high and only seems to be brewing more. i try not to let it effect my day to day routine, but a certain amount i have to deal with as well. i have to be especially careful to listen to my hunger ques during times like this. am i really hungry or am i just trying to fill a void/ease some tension. it can be hard. i have a LONG history of emotional/binge eating. i am doing a lot of other things to keep me occupied. busted out the coloring books with my son. and got outside to enjoy the warmer weather/sunshine.

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well hello to anyone out there! not quite sure what your suppose to write here but here goes.

i have always had self-image issues and this is the year that i learn to love myself again, or for the first time. to do this i am striving to meet my ‘happy weight’. but there is so much more too. i have finally realized the majority of what i need to focus on is on the inside! otherwise i wont truely be happy. i am trying to learn who i am and what my function is on this earth. i am a mother and a wife. my son and husband teach me about myself and others in new ways everyday.

yesterday i set my goal of 10 pounds. note i have lost over 50 pounds in the last 2 years. i am hoping when i reach that goal i will be well satisified with my body. something i’ve never expirienced. other fitness goals include running and being a ‘tough girl’. to get me there i am on a reduced calorie diet(1400) and exercise 5 days a week(30 min cardio/30 min yoga or strength training). that is the current regime, and we’ll tweak it accordingly. another thing i just started trying out is Apple Vinegar Shots. EEEWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!! it is only the second day. what i can say about them thus far:1. nasty, and hard to get used to. 2. def. works as an appitite suppresant, and not because they’re gross. somehow it just kills cravings. 3. i feel like my stomach is tighter???…. it’s also suppossed to clear your complexion and help cleanse your body. we’ll see how it goes.

so there’s the physical part, now the mental/emotional is always a lot harder to work on. and honestly i don’t have any ‘plan of action’. i am trying to recognize my feelings and evaluate my actions. express myself and be more creative. whenever i’m doing some form of art i feel better inside. at peace. most days i feel good. and when i start getting depressed, i try to look at it as normal, healthy feelings. to embrace them rather than push them down. as weird as that sounds.

so there you go… my first blog. pretty scattered…like my life><